The First day >.<

Since i made up my mind, i have decided to start my plan to lose my weight! Erm... Dun shocked by my action! Coz i m serious! i dun wan be a fatso anymore~ i hv told myself~ if i dun take any action to lose my weight, i will be the loser in this society~ So i start to ON DIET~

we hv 2 meals per day~ but we juz can drink non-sugar soya and some fruits... and stop from eating rice and noodle. T^T i think u guys will think am i crazy? yes~ i think i gone crazy~ i wan a slim body, a nice appearance... this is my target~ i must achieve it! i hv had my 'healthy' breaklunch two hours ago...The soya is tasteless... and the fruit is no delicious although it able to make me lose my appetite. i wish i will success after the three days. wakakaka... i dun wan be a loser! i muz keep it up! argh~ even i will faint and sent to hospital~ LOL~ OH no~ i am damn hungry nw~ i think i shud go brush my teeth and control my appetite.

T^T~ wat a miserable day... i m suffered by the 'gugugu' sound~ it keeps remind me that i eat too less to feed my damn stomach~ i m so useless~ i feel shame being a fatso in this society~ i m The Earth's burden! It is miserable because of i stay in this planet with the over-weight body! argh!

i will jog later wif cheh yi~ we need to exercise more to burn calories...we intend to jog abt one hour per day...i wish this plan is work! haha...we will jog in the park in front of my house. it is a nice environment to jog~ LOL

FAT, can you leave away from my body? i m nt suit to you. u had followed me so many yrs le~ it's the time u leave me. Can you hear me? i need to find a high salary job in the future~ Appearance is the most important condition... can u understand me??? I wish u can understand me~

Okay, i stop here lo~

Game over

Argh! I am over! I am becoming fatter and darker but not tanned. I can't control myself to eat and I am happy when I eat~ Walao~ Can I be more self-disciplined and able to control myself? I want to be slim! argh~ I have made up my mind not to eat too much during the dinner time and I want to walk back from school everyday to burn my sucks calories. LOL~ I want see a super fatso's picture to warn myself! This will make me scare about my future. >.< I don't want go mamak le lah~ mamak is the murderer who ruins my brightful future. I wan a slim body~ I want be thin~ argh! My friends, if I want to eat some rubbish foods at the unsuitable time~ Please scold me! Scold me that I am a fatso~ I will be the fattest man in the world if I keep to eat~ argh~ stop me from eating too much~ T^T

When I went back to JB last time~ my mummy was shocked by my skin. It is not because of my skin is getting better and is my skin colour. She said my skin colour is darker. OMFG~ mummy, I walk back from school everyday and without sun-block~ and protection. It is normal that my skin is darker than before~ But I don't want to be darker~ I want to be fair~ if I become very dark. Then, my life is totally over~ I can try to immigrate to India or commit suicide. >.<

I want be more hardworking in my skincare and whitening~ I have asked Aaron to help me buy some whitening masks le. I hope those mask can work in my skin~ T^T...And I am using a whitening lotion~ I desire to be fair~ I don’t want my skin is becoming darker anymore~ And I wish I can hear " u are fair now" from my dearest mother. LOL~

I think somebody will misunderstand me why I am so care about my appearance. Okay, I can explain here. Actually appearance is very important in this society nowadays... u can give a good first impression during ur interview or other places by ur appearance. SO that's why I am so care about my face. And I am not a handsome boy le, so the only thing I can do is just protect my skin not be worse and try to make myself better~ and become lengchai~ haha... This is my target~ wohohoho~

Okay lah~ I have to stop here le~ my friends, can u guy pray for me and wish I can own a slim body after the future six months?

天狼星

I heard a nice song during i was singing karaoke wif aaron and cheh yi~ It is a song in Korean language bah~ i m so so sure the language~ but it is nice~ wakakaka~ i fall in love wif this song~ LOL~ Coz i was touched by this song's melody when i was hearing this song~ This song is sung by Kim JIng Hoon~ woohoo~ He is a perfect singer lo~ haha. i think i gone crazy le~ Mayb i am over stress these few days. >.<>.<>


i hv searched the lyric from google~ but i cant find the translation of English, only chinese...Haha... The Chinese characters below ar the lyric of this song~ juz read it after u listen the song... It is so happiness when you ar enjoying the love... LOL~



抱紧你那种强烈的力量

我对你的爱就连说话也表达不完

如今虽然不能说出口

这满溢的思念 一定会传达到你那里去

潮水般的人群擦身而过

为了不与你走入迷途

请牢牢地紧握着我的手把

凛冽的寒风刮过不停地

打在我们的脸颊上

但是我们紧握的双手如今都是暖暖的

仰望星空，天狼星闪闪生辉，

对啊，让我们向星星许愿吧

希望那是永恒不变的有 深信那是不会完结的梦

在闪烁的星空下，悄悄地靠到这胸膛

抱紧你那种强烈的力量

我对你的爱就连说话也表达不完

就这样往远方去吧 向着未来直到永远

如夜空里闪烁的星星数目般

在互相交错着的人群中 我与你邂逅了

要好好珍惜这命运的安排

白色的吐气，像重叠了般那么的接近

对啊请更靠近我身旁因好想感受你的存在

希望那是房屋不变的爱 深信那是不会完结的梦

在闪烁的星空下，悄悄地靠到这胸膛

抱坚你那种强烈的力量 我对你的爱就连说话也表达不完

如今虽然不能说出口 这满溢的思念一定会传达你那里去

寒冬中那清澈的星空里，流星都有消失去了

描划轨迹的那一瞬间，二人立下爱的约誓

希望那是房屋不变的爱 深信那是不会完结的梦

在闪烁的星空下，悄悄地靠到这胸膛

抱紧你那种强烈的力量 我对你的爱就连说话也表达不完

就这样往远方去吧 向着未来直到永远

Haha... Do you agree with me now? I wish u can feel the happiness too when u are listening the song~ And i wish you all can find ur true love o~ This is my biggest greeting~ hehe ^^...

Okay luuu, i stop here looo~

Walao

I need to prepare my tests recently~ the tests is on Friday but i hv no any mood to study. i think i started to be lazy again. >.< i promised myself that i must be hardworking in my college life. But i cant grant my promise. Argh~ because of flu? or i m a totally lazy bum... haiz...

But now, i m worrying my costing test 2's result. i duno i am able to score high marks or not. It is so scary. but our lecturer will give back our exam paper tomorrow bah...>.< I wish i can get a good result~ God, pls bless me~ And my friend, pray for me, pls~

The final is coming soon le.T^T. worry so much~ but i wish i can do well in final~ Maybe i need some motivation~ i need somebody's accompany. OMG~ so unrealistic. i think i sem break be my motivation is more realistic. haha... Coz sem break is foreseeable but somebody is unachievable. haha...

Okay~ i shud plan where can i go in my sem break and put away these sucks annoying somebody.Lol~ anybody agree wif me??? i want go back JB and back to my mummy's side~ i miss her badly~ i wish i can her dishes~haha~~~ ya~ i am a mummy boy~ i cant lost my mummy~ haha~ dun jealous me o~

okay lah~ i shud stop le~ coz i rili need to prepare my test le~ see ya~

Lonely

Do you lonely? Am i lonely? i am afraid of lonely. i dun wan be alone. i need somebody's accompany. i am not so strong as you imagine. i am tired of being a strong boy. May i cry out loudly in front of someone? but where is you? Can i find you? i think it is hard to find you.sigh~

Maybe you are live in somewhere, and we havent met yet. i should be optismistic rite? lol...haha. this is the only consolation to me. but i dont hv the ability to fall in love now. but i am lonely... argh~~~ damn annoying. T^T...

okay, start to search my love nw~ = =''' approach me if you are interested in me~
lol... swt~~~

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